In the beginning

I decided last year that I really wanted to join a Bible study. Good idea, right? As I was deciding which one to join I really felt led to one that a couple of amazing women that I know are in, people whom I admire and look up to and promised that it wasn't too hard or intimidating :) To sweeten the deal, I found out they were studying Genesis. I admit I thought, I could do that! How many times have I read Genesis, like 4000? And I have taught it so many times that I really thought it would be a piece of cake. Apparently arrogance and over confidence will always come around and bite you in the behind. Today marked our second meeting, and I already feel overwhelmed. I get so shy in groups of people I don't know and I hate talking. I know, big shocker, but I really don't like speaking up. I feel like what I have to say is not inspiring or smart and I like being right so if I am not certain that I am right then I don't want to say anything. I know, I am a total control freak with major issues. I just wish that I had a friend with me, I work much better in a pair than on my own. Matt thinks this will be a good learning experience. I would write what my initial thought to that was but this is a G-rated blog. I just wish that I could walk into a room of people (other than that in my little circle) and be myself, not feel totally insecure and like people are expecting me to do and say a certain thing. Does everyone feel this way? I am going to give it a month and see what happens, I will keep you posted. Oh, and if you have any brilliant insight on Genesis 2 that I can claim as my own and share next week pass them along (hee hee, just kidding).